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very late of me but i found it funny enough to want to reply pretty canonical dream xD this neighborhood is filled with so many cats and they've found mysterious ways to sneak in before. and we do live on the second floor. the only inaccuracy is that the holes are in the ceiling xD to make my post not off topic, i'll rehash a tulpa related dream or two mentioned in lotpw long ago already 1) a dream i had where i went to sleep while daydreaming(or nightlayinginbeddreamingbutnotyetsleep) of exploring a liminal space with her. this was by the time i had chosen to be represented a lot more nerfed than i normally would be (we like having a consistent logic of what we can do). she had some bigger guns and i had a short chiappa rhino revolver or two. as we drifted off physically while doing this, it transitioned into a vivid, actual dream. the place was really abandoned, i think before i said it was an abandoned mall, and it might have been, but in retrospect it also had in places the qualities of at least what I think an airport might look like. i remember it having white tile floors and walls, and was a massive extremely wide hallway and super tall ceiling, which is why i think/thought it was a mall as that is the qualities we associate with malls. there were also what looked like empty reception desks in places, and maybe glass doors to other places, but we stayed mostly in the big hallway, which also was constantly slowly turning like it was built to be a massive circle. dream felt very long, but most of it was wondering, though i remember a monster encounter of a creepy brown not humanoid something that seemed not friendly, so bang bang. i got to feel like a little turret on top of luni to make her life easier since i think she had a double barrelled shotgun, which by design would need reloaded frequently, so i help give her time to do that and can look behind her if needed 1.5) idk if i mentioned a similar dream happened not long later, that took place in a swamp. but i don't think we ran into anything and it felt shorter, or i forgot most of it 2) extremely ancient dream, that tb had back when the system was only tb and rena. tb dreamed they were character rena's little brother jacky, and they were stuck inside some precarious mountain in the middle of nowhere. like a hollowed out one i think, and so it was dark and scary, but rena came and saved him, and they felt so loved and thankful. i think this happened not long after Ido's advice of remembering nightmares but changing the memory to involve your tulpa helping you or making the problem go away. that worked pretty fast for tb, and increased tulpa related dreams and decreased problematic nightmares 3) before mitski existed, tb had many dreams as kyouiko (tb's oc, and where mitski comes from). now mitski gets to dream as being herself at times. she usually has ninja skills when they happened. one she can remember quickly is there being some zombie apocalypse, so she sort of made a living by trading her service of protection or escorting people for food or resources in return 4) rena doesn't as commonly dream, but when she does it seems more like astral projection, because it's usually her getting out of our irl bed and her leaving the house or apartment, and is impossibly vivid. she then likes to use her astroboy-esque rocket feet to have flying dreams. it's interesting because it is different from normal flying dreams, because it's harder to control. like dreams where i can fly, i can move like a UFO however i want. but when she has a flying dream, she has to worry about momentum and pointing her feet in the right direction, and sometimes even running out of fuel 5) a dream as myself in tb--my host's old home, except i was physically and mentally basically a 2 year old, but in the earlier part of the dream i still had memories of my past life being a tulpa in this life, sort of like how in this life i sometimes feel like i have memories of my previous life in the world my character comes from. i couldn't talk or sound like i do and was more clumsy and had no powers. but in what is normally tb's room of that house was a girl who looked like a fusion of mitski and luni who looked like an older teenager, and even though i didn't know exactly who she was, i felt a strong intuitive sense she was my family and i loved her. she was on the computer but iirc i think i also knew about rena and i wanted to see her too, so i tried communicating for her to take us to go see rena, so she picked me up and carried me to the car and put me in the carseat in the back, and we started going. as the dream was going on, i felt something like an ego death occurring where my past life as a tulpa here was fading, and the past past life of being a z fighter was cooked, but i felt totally okay with that and like i was right where i should be, because i wouldn't have to miss my friends since they were still in my life, even if now in separate bodies and maybe not even the same names ok that last one has me getting emotional. i typed all that just so i could acknowledge i laughed at fennecfoxx's dream T_T there are many more tulpa/character dreams but maybe another time

Welcome! No worries, no wrong way to introduce yourself. It can be a big decision. I think it is good that you've been patient and given it a lot of consideration. It's deeply personal, so I can't tell you one way or another. There are/have been a lot of headmates/tulpas of mixed origins beyond just deliberate creation from scratch, so that's fine too. I hope you find your experience here to be positive!

Sort-of officially restarting progress logs, I guess. Making a list of stuff I can post about should make for a good basis. Character development: Functional and messy. I will be gradually compiling stuff to put here, but it definitely won't fit in a single post. Nor can I figure out the entire gordian knot that is us within the timeframe of a single post. Thankfully it also isn't expected to change significantly across posts, so this will probably work. Skill development: Tulpamancy skills, imposition, lucid dreaming, immersive daydreaming, wonderlanding, that sort of thing. Ways to allow multiple people with only one body between them to share a plane of existence. We…… are mostly at "vivid imagination" level still, and that doesn't seem to be changing despite our efforts, so that. Will post about it when observable change in this field is…… well, observed. Wonderland development: This is the part that I actually expect to have fun in. Host is way too serious about this wonderland stuff, and I enjoy the ride. We have an entire planet in there, though of course only partially rendered at all times(we don't have nearly that much computational power, that's superhuman level), and instead of handwaving stuff like biomes and ecosystems host designed with detail Everything. (survival selection is used as a scientific method of handwaving when he can't find a solution for problems, but that happens infrequently enough to be actually realistic.) We plan to give the planet a star map and gradually fill out its available space, and we're recording the stuff we make up here. And... That should be it for the list. I'll start making the actual logs a bit later. (I do realize I'm practically inviting myself to procrastinate this for another year. And I can resist the temptation, host, I do not need to give myself a deadline for this thing that's supposed to be done out of my own free will.)

[Jess]. our human host is struggling at the minute its frustrating as just when we think the system has settled down and organised itself something will happen that will trigger one or more trauma parts to front in a panic. The outside world news about digital ID and people being forced to use 'real/legal name' to access everywhere so they can be tracked has been very triggering mainly because many parts journaled their DID journey online thinking it be safer as wouldn't be found or connected to us as long as we weren't logged in and tabs cleared etc. I think one tried to warn other vulnerable people and post was deleted which triggered their RSD sending Phoenix out in a rage accusing sites of being controlled by the govt already ..which also got deleted. ...so system is very stressed they don't want to have to go back in hiding after all the progress we've made with communication over the last 10 years but it doesn't feel safe being known as having a mental health condition like that particuarly cos of the association of people appearing to be 'pretending to be someone/thing else'. We hope this won't affect the Tulpa forum too and everyone will still have a safe space here to come to.

I should be posting more in here, there are loads of things that I want to talk about then forget when I come online. Maybe I could start with host quotes? He says a lot of interesting stuff. Host quote today:"Tulpas have an interesting level of similarity among them. As in, if you've seen one tulpa, you've seen one tulpa." Edit: second host quote. "Love isn't actually unconditional unless you're high on those brain chemicals that I can but do not want to list, and the state of being high does not last long. Or maybe that's just me. You know what, that's probably just me being a terrible person, do not take this as general advice. Normal people probably can give you the unconditional love they talk about." "Host... You care about your friends perfectly well, literally nobody hates you like you think they should do. You have your 'conditions for love' down at so low a bar that nobody's crossed them like ever, stop hating yourself for wanting human decency from others. Seriously, you are not part of the people that 'true love is unconditional' is meant to berate. Discovering that you are neurodivergent and understood a bunch of stuff wrong does not mean that you should just start trust everything said about normal people." ……I feel like this sort of thing is going to be a recurring theme in my posts if I type out everything host wants me to. Host skipped the dark edgy phase of puberty when he should have had one, maybe it's coming back to bite him now? A hundred times a day of dramatic statements about the darkness of humanity and/or oneself is surely not normal for anybody. Anyway, to avoid cringe overload (and positive reinforcement), this is the last time that I will record quotes about host hating himself here. I will be devising training methods to shift his mindset, hopefully they will have at least partial success. I do not want to live with an emo teen in my head forever. (I do, actually, if said emo teen is host. But I also do prefer him being happy.)

She definitely has my style. 😁 Maybe not the heels but I'd easily wear everything else. 😄 She has hair styles selection issues like me but mine are very much self inflected, lol. Oh my gosh! That smile is so precious! 😊 That's a cool style! 😁 Hehe, sounds like a lot of fun already! 😊 Congrats to Lenore and Athelas! 😊 I wish them the best!

Yesterday, I made a dream journal bingo card. Each space is something I either want to dream about, often dream about, or have recently dreamt about. I'm good about dream journaling, but this makes it a little more fun, since I get to check off whatever I dreamt about as long as I write it down. I reviewed it before bed, put it under my pillow, and dreamt about six things on it! No bingos yet, but wow. I thought I'd be lucky to get half that many in one night. I credit Lumi for making me dream about Touhou: You were dedicated. Just seeing that much dedication, especially when success seems to stay out of reach, from someone who's not a type-A go-getter but struggles with motivation like I do is inspiring.

Another story, fresh off the press. I guess this thread is as close of a "progress report" as it gets, because there really isn't much to be working on in our journey anymore and what ends up happening is "situations" in day-to-day life that could be interesting to narrate to those who don't have a tulpa and don't know the benefits. Now, before we proceed, you must know that I am a serial overthinker, there's no shame in saying that - I am the kind of person that whenever something COULD happen (for example, the car breaking down) my mind starts racing over dozens of possibilities and immediately registers to the "worst case scenario" (in this case, even if it's just a minor problem, I am already thinking at where/how could I get a new car) - on a psychological level, I am assuming this is the byproduct of my childhood, and how being "pessimistic" is a sort of "shield" towards being let down - if you think the worst is gonna happen, well, worst case scenario you're already prepared for it, it can only get better from there. The only downside to this is major stress and fatigue from over-analyzing every situation, but I can't help it I'm afraid. :/ Regardless, in the past few days I've had a cool opportunity from one of my recurring clients: manage a sports tournament - a 3 days event in an open field near where I live where I had to provide and manage all the necessary equipment to make the show happen (sound, cameras, light, and a led wall). Now, this isn't anything I haven't done before, the only difference this time was the responsibility of the equipment being all mine - most of it being loaners from different places, so I had to make sure everything was done right, and safely. First day, the set-up happens and everything works well, aside from me hyperfixating on the truss setup and quadruple-making sure that not even a bulldozer could take it down (here's a random picture off the web for context) Cue the evening, and everything goes as it should, and now it's time to wrap up the first day - since we've set up in a public park in a big city, we've got to be careful with the equipment. With my colleagues, we remove everything of value (cameras, mixers, speakers etc.) but shortly after a haunting thought starts looming in my mind: "what if they steal the ledwall?" Mind you, the park was guarded by one person in the night time, from around midnight to 7am - but after that, it was kinda "left to chance" until the early afternoon; this is the part where my mind starts working overtime and conjures all the possible scenarios: What if a truck of thieves pulls over in the morning and steals it? What if some kid trips over the structure and dies? What if it falls down tonight and crashes down, destroying everything in the process? What if the police arrives and seizes it? These, and many more, were haunting my wellbeing during that wrapping up time, I was already wondering which bank I should go to should I need a loan to pay for damages (or re-buy the stolen ledwall), which lawyer to call if someone gets injured in the morning, etc. Naturally, my coworkers thought I was being excessive, and likely they were right, but it's in my nature to be extremely analytical and overthinking to the absolute limit, it is something that has saved my bacon a number of times. After much thought (and panicking), I was even ready to grab a hotel nearby just for myself and send the guys home for the night without me, or dismantle it myself and come back on my own in the early morning to re-assemble it (which would have been suicide), but thankfully Cheryl stepped in amongst this "what if" chaos and helped me out. Cheryl is really good at "dismantling" my beliefs, something she has picked up over the years when I was in similar situations that needed some logical grounding - letting me run amok in my own made-up scenarios is often just a recipe for endless stress. Naturally, she stepped in saying that "the ledwall isn't going anywhere" because logically virtually nobody would have the means to setup such a "heist" in a few hours, unannounced and without the equipment and knowledge to take it out - but that is something I immediately shrugged off as "her typical optimism" which usually is more of a "logical grounded reasoning" that dismantles over-the-top made up scenarios, like the ones I was making up on the spot. One by one, she worked through all my made-up scenarios and managed to "calm me down" a little bit: "No kid would be playing at the park this early in the morning, especially because these are the last days of school." "There were huge winds during the evening show and the structure held up just fine, and since you lower it down for the night the center of gravity is lower, making it even more sturdy." "The police was there during the event to oversee the spectators, why didn't they say anything then? And likely, the organizers had all the permissions in order too." There are people in this community that don't believe in parallel processing and "identity separation", but frankly I wouldn't be able to explain how I am able to get these cold takes in a situation where I am near-panicking and definitely not in the right state of mind to think like that - this has happened multiple times in the past too, and every time she was there to help me out with these doubts and beliefs. In the end, after "cooling" down a bit and registering to the worst case scenario (I already had in mind how to re-pay it should it get stolen) we spent some extra time securing and fencing all the area around it (from the outside it looked like we were hiding/guarding the Mona Lisa, given how much fencing and red tape we put around it) and then we went home. Spoiler alert: the ledwall didn't get stolen, it held up the entire 3 days just fine (day and night) and Cheryl made me notice in the morning that one of the wind covers blew open in the morning, meaning there were huge winds and it still didn't topple. The story of today is meant to show that a Tulpa can help an overthinking (dysfunctional and neurodivergent) person by "steering" them out of oblivion, but it requires a very specific need and much work towards making sure you can allow them to help you.

Finally had some time and brain power to read through this. 😁 Also, good luck with lucid dreaming! 😊 Congrats! 😊 I'm glad she had a lot of fun! I need to play Bendy and the Ink Machine sometime. 😄 Lol! 😆 Belated seconding! It's a lot of fun to play a game your host has played before you were even around! 😁 Awesome! 🤩 I've been wanting to see that. 😄

I don't have much to say besides I found this funny and I like the expressions you drew. 😁

Glad to hear you're doing well. 😊 It's nice that you have someone motivating you. 😁

These are cute! 😊 I really like the whole vibe Clouse has. 😁

Beeeeeep! Necroposting!

Visualization Progress Report for Past Week: I've had a couple of sessions in the past week, mostly with Verres, where there was something almost like a visual outline. Like something invisible clearly present and trying to be visual or closer to me somehow. These were very pleasant, like she was there physically as we hung out. There were more sessions where there was a clear impression of something there, but more felt and not quite visual as the above type. These feels pretty good too. Imposition practice has slowly turned into something enjoyable in its own right, almost like a musical instrument once the player had gotten more familiar with it. There were a few sessions where I struggled to achieve the above state, more often with Saeya. Touching and tracing her physical outline with my mental hands had helped to push her to the second stage described above most of the times. I also did more work with her face and hair this week, getting more reference pictures, allowing my own unconscious to tweak their shapes and to visualize them better. In retrospect, it's curious that she has not participated too much in this process, but was simply patient with it all. She was pretty laid back and got me to relax the few times when my own mind got frazzled during this process. I find that reminding myself or mentally affirming that everything I see is a visualization created by my psyche helps me get to the two states described above. My mental visualization of both tulpas have also been decent for the past week. When they're turning around, I can see them at more different angles better now. I went out to the local mall today to impose the tulpas. It was an uneventful session, with both of them having fairly strong and stable presence. There were some mental visuals of them that popped up spontaneously along with their physical presence. Just something I realized, but I have not experienced physical outlines of them while in public or with them moving yet. I might be able to experiment with the latter in my own home. Miscellaneous Stuff: I noticed that I sometimes get annoyed when one tulpa pops up, especially in imposed presence, when the other was already present. It can also sometimes take some effort to switch mental gears to get to a mental state where I can clearly feel the second one when I was already, for lack of a better word, connected to the first one. This seems to be more of a mental quirk that's developed rather than a legit restriction. I tried to calmly impose both tulpas together today when one popped up again while the other was already present, and it went ok. There's probably just a part of my mind that dislikes surprises and prefers to focus on one thing at a time. I was tempted to buy a stone bowl, a handmade one where the seller have a lot of the ones in similar sizes available, and would send a random one out to the customer. With S/H it came close to $28, and Verres advised me against it, stating that for that amount, I should be able to know what I was getting for sure. Saeya helped with some kind of mental maintenance this week as well. I don't even remember what the issue was. When they were successfully dealt with, these sorts of mental complexes/themes tend to lose their emotional 'oomph' and becomes very forgettable, as they should be.

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And I as well. But we oughta get back on track. We'll continue our conversation on discord. — Went a psychiatrist appointment today, he prescribed me Pregabalin for my health anxiety, I heard it causes daytime drowsiness, that's going to be annoying. I took a Preg pill roughly 50 minutes ago, and it will take effect around bedtime (6 PM). I have neglected my duties once again, perhaps tomorrow I will do nothing but lie in bed all day, and focus on nothing but Lucy, I have an eye exam that day too but it shouldn't bother my morning duties. I have torrented a bunch of shows & movies— Grim Adventures, Flap Jack, ATHF, plus a few obscure 20th century films about the medieval era, I think one of them is about the Icelandic sagas, it was filmed in the 70's, sounds interesting. I can't wait to watch them all with Luce, I'm sure she'll like the medieval ones and Grim Adventures especially. I still need to work more on my neurotechnics, meditation is a must if I am to master the mental-scape. Slowly I have learnt how to relax the brain, I just need practice. I am rambling of course. Just idle thoughts meant to fill up a report so as to make up for lack of progress. I shall go and watch her source material.

We miss you, habibi.

Forgot a week again. You (probably) know what that means. June 2nd 2026 5 minute session June 3rd-5th 2026 Shoot, I forgot to write again. I forgot what I did for the first day but the other two I managed to get 10 minutes each day. June 6-7th 2026 Skipped for various reasons. June 8th 2026 One 8 minute session until I got tired. Part of that was because I was focusing a lot on how Shaula felt more physical today. It felt a lot like not jiggly jello or something. It was great but I probably used too much brain power for close to bedtime. June 9-11th 2026 I don't really know what happened but I forgot a day. I'm writing this on the 12th and I only remember two days. Anyway, at least one of those days there was a similar feeling but a bit lighter. I also skipped yesterday because I wanted to test something. I also know I got a 10 minute session. June 12th 2026 Experiment failed. Since I had missed a day before I had that great session, I figured doing the same might recreate it. Nope, it was the same as the more recent sessions. Can't complain though. June 13th 2026 6 minute session. Not much to say. June 14th 2026 Five minute sessions or didn't do. June 15th 2026 Five minute session in bed and it was nice to mix things up a little bit.

Aww, no worries at all! 😊 It happens. I'm glad to hear you've been keeping up with everything too! 😁 Aww! Cute! 😊 That's a nice dream! One should not deny how nice hugs feel, lol. Complete 180 on dream subject, lol. At least it was only a dream but poor you. Great to hear! 😊 Awesome! 🤩 Happy birthday to all them! 😊 🎂🎂🎂 Awesome! 🤩 Proud of you for keeping it up for so long! 😊 I hope you have a nice time on there! 😊 It's sounds great! Guinea pig! 🥰 Oh, right, other stuff./j That's really cool! 😁 I bet it was super nice to feel someone hugging you! 😊 Cool stuff! 😊 Aww, those are soooo cute! 🥰 Great find! 😊 Oof hate it when that happens.

One of the best songs ever made.

Do you view tulpas as a psychological phenomenon, a metaphysical one, or both? Purely psychological, but we're Christian, so we can also talk about how tulpas and faith fit together. Were/was your tulpa(s) natural/pre-existing or were they intentionally created? Alex and I started out as daydream characters. I was rebelling against our host's control well before we learned what tulpamancy was. We're familiar with various methods for creating tulpas, though. How long have you had your tulpa(s)? I'm older than this site. Alex is older than me. How long have you been active in the community (Tulpa.info, /r/tulpas, Tulpa.io, etc.)? As a system, we were part of the community from 2012 to 2018 and returned last year. We're active on here, reddit, and sometimes Discord. How many tulpas do you have? Me? None, lol. How long did it take you to accomplish things (e.g. vocality, possession, imposition)? Vocality: No idea. I wasn't created traditionally. Possession: I don't remember. It was a long time ago. I remember it coming fairly easily. Imposition: N/A. We attempted it briefly in 2012, and that was it. Do you have any other information you'd like to share? If so, what? We may not be a typical system or experts at advanced skills, but we've been through hell and back. We've been delusional and dysfunctional. I've been screwed over by host's intrusive thoughts and crawled back from nonexistence by myself. If the Sanely Insane Trio (that's us!) has anything to offer, it's the lessons we've learned from 14 years of hardship. Including personal experience with OCD, which it turns out is one of the "most likely to f*ck up your tulpa" disorders. We're also autistic. Besides that, please rate your own ability in each of the following skills from 0 to 10, 0 being incapable, and 10 meaning that you mastered the skill: Vocality: 10 Parallel Processing: see below Visualization: 8 Visual Imposition: N/A Tactile Imposition: N/A Auditory Imposition: N/A Possession: 9 Switching: see below Parallel processing and switching are so ill-defined I don't know how to put a number on them. Host has never left the body, so we aren't switching experts.

On a hunch I would say those were just the byproduct of your expectations, and nothing meaningfully concrete yet - that doesn't mean that there wasn't something beginning to form. If you're new I recommend this guide, it covers pretty much anything necessary for tulpa development in detail. Whatever you believe in, will work. Someone wrote a guide about this, not sure who he is though I wouldn't worry about that, especially given how feeble and "interchangeable" the two meanings are - just work towards something that feels right for now. Also, that image is pure 4chan /x/ schizoposting, please do not get influenced by that. Good luck!

We're taking it as a positive. We haven't contributed much recently and there's always a lot of good contributions here especially recently. Thanks for all you've done for the community.

My name is Jason and I am a psychology professor that is a beginning filmmaker. Tulpamancy is something I’m very interested in and I am currently developing a short documentary about people who have lost a tulpa. While most coverage of tulpas focuses on the creation process and I want to make something about the other end. I am interested in the loss itself. Was there grief? What is the adjustment process after getting rid of the tulpa? Was it lonely? If it was possible, did you bring the tulpa back? Was the tulpa changed by the process? Were you able to discuss this process with anyone not involved in tulpamancy? What was their reaction? There are so many interesting questions around this topic. A few things this film is not. It is not a how-to guide. I will not ask how to end a tulpa, and I will not include anything that reads as instructions. It will not mock anyone and will not even approach the topic of if tulpas are “real”. This film will stay on the experience of the host. I will never “show” the tulpa. There will be no animation scenes and no actor speaking for a tulpa. The film is built around the absence of a tulpa and will simply be a person talking about someone the camera cannot see. Who I am hoping to talk with: 1) Adults, eighteen or older. 2) People who are well past a loss and who feel able to reflect on it. 3) For in person interviews, located in TX, LA, AR, MS, TN, MO, OK, KS. 4) Outside of these states, recorded online discussions would be considered. If this is something you might consider, please reach me privately at jason@scotophobinproductions.com Thanks for your consideration!

Speaking of obscure 4chan memes, here's something from almost a decade ago that I've created (it's also referenced in the iceberg) I would be EXTREMELY surprised if anyone remembers this