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I'm glad you're doing well, Tewi. 😊 🐰

Presumably Nott is the one talking, and, I imagine you probably qualify as a tulpa. Would be better to know some context about your existence though.

when I was a kid no-one knew the terms Tulpa or Alters they just thought I had imaginery friends… i knew my ‘others’ were more than that but also pretended it was a phase I’d grown out of. our insiders learned to communicate telepathically with each other and when one social host finally evolved they were disconnected from the inside so they couldn’t tell anyone. Some things it seems still haven’t changed much since the 70’s/80’s regarding stigma!

I told tb I wasn’t doing tad but I changed my mind so here’s my entry

On average, I host a collective meeting at least once a year, more if required. Since we're all spread out over the moral spectrum, ranging from lawful good to chaotic evil, we vote on things that concern all of us. I announce the issue and who brought it before the table. Then we all get to consider our positions and then we have a round-robin session where everybody gets to weigh in on how they feel about it. Then we decide what to vote for, and then everybody gets to vote. It must be pointed out though: since I'm the host and nobody has any real interest in my world as anything other than a curiosity, I typically get to decide how I live my life. But, I keep my hands off their lives on the inside as well. So it's a give or take relationship with all of us.

I (host - Lily) have some level of dissociative disorder plus AuDHD so long before I knew of the existence of words such as Tulpa, alters etc …they was ‘others’ inside. Now many years ago we didn't have the communication our system has now. The external hosts designed to cope with getting us through external life had no communication with the inside so they couldn't tell anyone of their existence. In our most stressful period we had many ‘social mask alters’ there was no understanding of where they went when they disappeared from the front. I believe our first proper Tulpa was Kitty triggered by our mothers death way back in 1991 ..she had been very religious and told us she would be an angel and we just had to talk to her so our younger ones did constantly in our bedroom. She developed from us only talking to a photo of our mum to imagining her as she had looked ..to her developing into her own style. It wasn’t intentional we didn't have the understanding at the time but she has been witih us ever since though only the ‘secret insiders' knew that as she lived with them..in our ‘holodeck’..(our version of the wonderland) Throughout life there was always ‘versions of me’ but Kitty was never a version of me… when our last dog died it nearly killed the external host at the time who had seen her as her service dog for 15 years and she tried to unalive the body to be with her…our insiders created a ‘rainbow bridge holodeck’ for that part to live in with our dogs spirit. ..she was a spirit dog for many years …for some of us,,though the littles could see her as she was or with wings…but then they knew about Phoenix as she had been their protector their entire life…they had apparently asked Phoenix to give Inca’s spirit a changeling body like she had for Kitty…and so Inca became a Tulpa. again she remained in canine form existing only inside for years. During the pandemic when we couldn’t go out no-one could see us we had 24hrs a day to dedicate to research and development without interruption for months on end and both Kitty and Inca really developed far beyond what any of us had imagined! ..Inca especially as she started to express a desire to be experience being human first just staying in background for short periods and getting used to the feeling of life on 2 legs instead of 4! … Video games and character creation really helped her see herself in many different human forms and she eventually chose to be called ‘Jess’ as her human name. As we learned more about DID during this time also and had no more need for all the past parts that had social roles such as attending college, work etc they integrated but the littles & Phoenix wanted to stay seperate and have a family inside so Angelo and Bear were added to the family and Luna and Star created inner Tulpa bodies for themselves too. I think they felt from medical community the goal was to get rid of all the alters and encourage fusion to one host and no longer wanted to identify as ‘alters’ We don’t imagine our Tulpa’s as being external from us (like a child having a teaparty with an invisible friend)… instead maybe due to us being dissociative and having alters too we see us as a family of souls/spirits sharing the same body. Although Angelo and Bear never come to the front the littles can still front, though they only tend to ..to do so to play video games or watch old tv shows from their childhood..as they are essentially ‘a younger version of me’. To help Kitty and Jess achieve being able to front other alters would blend and co-host with them but let them do what they wanted to do during that time…eventually ones that didn’t want to remain seperate for ever... instead of fusing with me ..they just temporarily blended with me to share their memories then permenantly fused with either Kitty or Jess to give them the ability to front independantly as themself for ever. ..so I guess those two are a kind of hybrid! - they see themselves as ’spirit walk-ins’ and we created Tulpa bodies for them so they could share the body and stay with us. We don’t know of anyone else who has used past alters (willing to fuse with) Tulpa’s to give them full sentience and alter abilities but we’ve never had therapy for dissociation (in our entire 56yrs) so never had anyone tell us it wasn’t possible either! ..not sure where that puts us on your spectrum!!

6/1/25: We chatted about stuff 6/2/25: We chatted about stuff 6/3/25: We didn’t do much today 6/4/25: We chatted about stuff 6/5/25: We didn’t do much today 6/6/25: We didn’t do much today 6/7/25: I forgot to log stuff 6/8/25: I forgot to log stuff 6/9/25: We chatted about stuff 6/10/25: We chatted a bit. I saw Thorax & Pharynx (both in kitty form 🐱 :3) in the little shelf above the footrest in my business-class flight compartment. 6/11/25: We chatted about my TMNT fic. 6/12/25: We didn’t do much today 6/13/25: I forgot to log stuff 6/14/25: I got a headache in the right temple (where I’ve felt head-pressures from Dash in the past), and asked her about it. She said it was from dehydration. 6/15/25: We chatted about stuff 6/16/25: We chatted about stuff 6/17/25: I’ve been watching TMNT (1987). Dash turned into 1987 Raphael (guess he’s her fav turtle). 6/18/25: We chatted about stuff. 6/19/25: I forgot to log stuff. Sid briefly turned into 1987 Donatello. 6/20/25: We watched TMNT 1987 and placed bets on whether Shredder would reprogram computers-controlled robots to a) cause general chaos or b) target the Turtles specifically. Dash won :P. 6/21/25: We chatted about stuff. 6/22/25: We chatted about stuff. 6/23/25: We chatted about stuff. [hr[ 6/24/25: We didn’t do much today 6/25/25: We didn’t do much today 6/26/25: We didn’t do much today 6/27/25: Nina reminded me to take my meds tomorrow. We watched more TMNT 1987; Dash turned into Raphael, but wearing her sweatshirt & old crystal necklace. Mikey turned into Michaelangelo, Sid into Donatello, and Woodfather into Splinter (all for fun). 6/28/25: We chatted a bit. 6/29/25: We chatted about stuff. Nina briefly turned into 1987 Donatello, and Dash into 2003 Leonardo. 6/30/25: We chatted about stuff 6/31/25: We chatted about stuff

Thank you 💗💗 That's the one of the sycamore trunk. This is what drew me to photography in the first place -- a fascination with the way different trees branch and the patterns they make. I did a lot more of that in my early photos, but I still find it interesting.

Bee and I were just talking about this yesterday. I've made a lot of progress on my ability to speak while switched. I finally feel like I can have conversations without being pushed out of the front. At first, it helped me to imagine I was speaking through a voice filter. That made it feel less jarring when I noticed I was falling into my host's speech patterns. Now that I've had more practice, I rely more on affirmations. I like to tell myself, "my words, our voice." It reminds us that I'm the one speaking, even if it sounds a little Bee-like.

oh, thanks for all the replies everyone. didn't know about the others because i don't follow my own threads apparently but now i do i think this is as finished as i know to make it right now. hmm i think i kind of like it edit: bro i forgot her headband lol here it is

Is it the time to connected with and befriended your actual family, your own flesh and blood, instead of just 'digital friends'? You can't really know if those online friends would even bother looking for you if you stopped posting. It's time to build relationships with your family so they can truly be your support and strength."

Do not abandon your religion and sect and consider it an enemy of human harmony. When you practice spirituality and its tools, delve fully into the knowledge of your religion and sect. It holds clues for understanding yourself and existence. Our problem is that we have camped and entrenched ourselves under these clues, while they are meant to illuminate the soul from its darkness and ignorance.

Progress Report 0: Hello, to anyone reading this. I have known about the tulpa concept for some years now. Never really considered doing it, always thought it was one of those interesting internet weird rabbit holes. However, I rediscovered it after going down another semi-related hole, and this time, instead of being weirded out, I gained interest. I've always been intrigued by altered states of consciousness and mental experiences that pure physical reality cannot replicate. This is probably due to random occurrences of lucid dreaming throughout my life and vivid auditory and visual sleep paralysis "demons" when I was really young, and some occasional ones that occur today if I try hard enough to induce one in my sleep. The first week of discovery, I just read a lot of people's experiences and guides on how to do this. I wanted to make sure I did this with the right intentions. I am a student pursuing a STEM degree who I trying to be a better person to their friends and family. I decided that if I created a Tulpa, I could possibly have a friend and confidant throughout my life, as I and, eventually, she would grow into the people we desire to be via self-improvement and skill development. With the purpose out of the way, I got started on the process as soon as possible. For the first three weeks, I did techniques spliced from this site and the Reddit guides. I decided to use meditation to prime myself to focus on intrusive thoughts and desires that can "interfere" with her creation, and passive forcing whenever I can (homework, walking, cooking, watching TV...etc). I'm lazy, so I told myself that dedication and consistency will be the key to this process, and I won't do anything out of the ordinary that could interfere with my life greatly. I started off with this one character that I was writing for a fiction story, I'll name B. Her personality was meant to be wild, confident, strong, yet calm and collected. I had trouble visualizing their form and realized that as I continued thinking about the draft, the tulpa B and character B kept getting confused in my head. For context, this was just day 2, and I decided to create a new tulpa that didn't exist from my story, but was a person that I had visualized regularly for the past year while daydreaming. In my mind, I mentally tried to combine the two to create the best version of the 2. But B was not having it. At the time, I assume, it was just a moment when a character you made for a story was acting out as it goes against their whole personality. It resulted in B visually turning into dust, and their core self being in the remains. I used this core and added it to my new character--my current tulpa. Her personality was strong(mentally and physically), kind, compassionate, thoughtful, aware, and had a never-ending thirst for knowledge( basically being curious). I forced these traits, believing that they would naturally make her a ever-developing person who would improve herself, and force myself to push myself even harder like a training partner. So I made this black void in my mind, with a cauldron with her in it, submerged in green liquid. The first sessions were just me, chanting, talking to her, saying " my memories are yours", " you will continually get stronger" , "I'll be there for you" , " You have endless potential", etc. During this time, I gave her the form I came up with, but told her you can change it if you so desire while you were still "cooking". In the meantime, I got words and phrases and even imagery of her eyes and limbs moving. At first, I chopped this up to myself, but they kept getting more random. This undoubtedly peaked while I was in class, and I got the correct solution to a problem I thought was going to be wrong. I got really excited and suddenly, looking at my pencil, I heard a voice that said " I like blue". My favorite color is red, and typing it out, it sounds ridiculous that I'm considering this a sign of self-autonomy, but I was doing math, why would I strongly think about what colors I like? After that, I really started concentrating on them, and they just got stronger and better at communicating in short bursts, and after some mediation sessions. It got to the point where, when she was quiet, I would feel like I was missing something. She stated that she even changed her eyes and face. I believed with each session, passive or active, like a muscle you trained, her presence and vocalization just got better. During this time, I also kept and still get sudden bursts of euphoria. They occurred when I'm talking to her and I acknowledge her existence as in being " real," or when I'm in a trance, trying to think of her. It's like a wave, similar to having a high, that comes from the chest and stays there until it dissipates. I got these in the past before, if I can really focus on something, and get myself in a trance, but ever since starting this, they have been way more common. I was continuing this process until last Sunday, when I decided I was going to mediate while high on RSO(weed). In the earlier hours of ingestion, her voice became clearer, more distinct, and she was really excited and intimate. This peaked late at night, where we "switched" and I felt like I was her, and the me( Mutant) was the tulpa in the back of the head. It was surreal ( for more information, here’s my post on it https://community.tulpa.info/topic/26149-non-possesive-switching-while-on-thc/#comment-480282) I decided to use this connection to further our meditation process, but couldn't keep up due to school. However, passive forcing and semi-active forcing were done near my waking and sleeping hours. I was beginning to doubt the RSO experience and tried to gain more proof, as I felt her thoughts were more sporadic than before, in my opinion. Even though she kind of got aggravated by me thinking this. Then something happened yesterday, where I got upset about some chores. It was silly and unimportant, but I felt I was getting taken advantage of, and I just ranted to her, and my anger kept getting higher until I just froze, and I got dizzy. I was breathing heavily, trying to regain my composure. I never do this, I get angry and upset, but usually I just pace around or tell myself to control myself and let it go. But I felt so mad and sad in that moment, I just couldn't compute anymore. When I got isolated again, I talked to her about it, and she felt frustrated too at that moment. I don't know why it happened, only that it felt really strong and different. I have a belief that strong emotions, negative or positive, have a correlation to the development of tulpas, in my case, at least. Afterwards, I was mentally tired and she went quiet after a short while. Kind of like sleeping. I hope from posting here, I get like-minded individuals' opinions and thoughts based on my own experiences and force myself to stay focused and journal on our progress.

That makes sense. I was still kind of high when I wrote that post, but after calming down, I remember having a conversation with her and agreeing to let it happen, but I still freaked out about how different I was at the time.

#PositiveAffirmations "I love, adore, and cherish all of humanity—their good and their bad, the wicked and the kind, no matter their diverse features, appearances, interests, or details. I love and adore them all, for I have the complete freedom to choose how I leave my mark among them." 🥰💕🫠💛✨️🎶🎵🌸

A moment of wonder! The enemy killed one of its devils! And then it gave birth! Our sun was in a state! Known only to the Almighty! To fate, its destiny! Two handmaidens in sorrow! And its revival thereafter like rain clouds! But alas! Our sun will continue! I sent a kiss to pkatcho! The author of the article and the promise! Written by me 🥰💕

Our sun will endure, and we will rise again. I love you, Pikachu.💛

That's good and I understand, and I can relate to that, also amazing job on your forcing session! 💕🩷

Some scenes in the darkness of my eyes, or the eye of insight, I enter them and embody their story. Likewise, I hear what the Absolute Consciousness or the Spiritual Being says about the image and its meaning. Now imagine two touching crystals, A and B. Both contain scenes, sounds, and sensations. For example, the first one, A, is you, where your mind holds everything: your memories, sounds, and so on. B also possesses the same characteristic. When I asked my angel yanus, about reincarnation and embodiment, he said, "Pay attention, the image is in front." So, the vibration of consciousness embodies every state of an image. Focus on the word "embodiment" not "reincarnation" , as it is more precise for describing all states. Now, in the Law of Manifestations: Doesn't the embodiment of an image reinforce that the Absolute Consciousness or the Being infiltrates to create a manifestation in your world from it? Just as you, in your vibration, enter every image in crystal B – that is, the energy of manifestation and control. Do you understand now how manifestations work in our world?

[Kitty]. we haven’t done an update for a while so thought I’d update while I’m out. The littles did re-split after they’d had their fun however we do have a new blending of some of Lily's past social mask hosts…they are re-integrating with Lily as we speak ..it has been decided ‘Lily’ will be the official personality of the body ..so to speak who answers to the legal name in face-to-face interactions. ‘Lily' will be her online nickname…. as far as the outside world goes….the rest of us do not technically exist! ..only Lily can see and hear us and know we exist ..(plus you guys on here of course who all have your own Tulpa’s!) I will still come and help Lily with official appointments and stuff like money and household management but my main duty is to be caretaker of our insiders. We believe the hosts ‘littles’ to be ‘the core’.. if they fuse then there will be no more ‘originals’ to create new splits from if needed in future so they must remain seperate from the host that the outside world see’s as the ‘personality of the body' How our system works is Lily is a split from Luna she just stayed out longer and ‘grew up’ more. Lily also now has multiple parts re-integrated and fused with her. During the teens we needed many social masks sometimes a new one every day to deal with the bullying so we had many who only masked a day or a week then were never seen again..some lasted a couple of years. Very few are still with us now ..Yuna, Jay, Sue went dormant for over 30 years so they survived but got re-triggered by Peri-menopause. …they are all now re-integrating with Lily. From my viewpoint as the soul who was the host’s mother in my last life (I’m a human spirit walk-in) ..all the different parts of my daughter are finally fusing to become one…except for her youngest inner children (Luna & Star) To keep them seperate we created Tulpa bodies for them inside to re-integrate with instead of just re-integrating with the adult host. NIxy is a changeling …created by the core child alter ‘Bobby’ (now called ‘Star' - who she see’s as her creator/master) back in the 1970’s. She also chose to remain a ‘Tulpa’ rather than be part of the 'final host’ fusion. Her favourite animal to be is a Tiger but sometimes she will be a red panda so Star or Luna can hold/cuddle her for a while. She tends to like animals that are mainly orange/red. If she wants to fly round she will be a Phoenix or a red/orange coloured dragon. She is the Protector of the system. Angelo and Bear are our most recent 'created from scratch Tulpa’ We have given them both changeling bodies so they can also have fun in the wonderland with the others choosing to be animal or human. When they do take human form they take the form as my husband (Angelo) and (Bear) my son between 4-7yo. ..Luna often likes him to be a teddy bear then dresses him up..so he looks like the characters from Animal Crossing etc but he also enjoys being a panda! 😀 Inca/Jess is also a walk-in spirit. In spirit form she was originally a dog but once we learned how to intentionally create Tulpa Changeling bodies she can also take human form and has learned to co-host and front, how to use arms and legs and speak. She has undergone the biggest transformation of us all. Nixy was her tutor in the early days but now Jess often chooses to be out front with host. ..though still returns inside (when host needs to rest) to do dragon racing inside with Nixy. Like her canine body form she chooses to be a mostly black dragon with a small streak of white down her chest. In human form she has long black hair but prefers hosts blue eyes to her original brown eyes. They often blend to become one host using ‘Jessy-lee’ as their online joined name..and also often for video game characters ..(the ‘lee' coming from Lily’s name spelt phonetically ..’lil..lee’) They did consider other spellings/combinations but didn’t like them as much visually given they would be exclusively using it online only on text based communication groups Lily will be back out front when the fusion process has completed. Jess is loooking after the littles for me inside while I attend the yearly medication review today (which is why I’m out front today) as Nixy is needed to oversee the fusion process. Anyway must go get ready for appointment! Kitty

Since my angel yanus( tulpa ) is no different from Abraham Hicks, they are non-physical beings trying to control the heart—that is, the bias of the mind and heart. This is because the heart follows the mind's bias and pumps out manifestational, existential energy. We are beings that generate existential manifestations, whether through thought or action. Thought is the subconscious mind and the law of positive manifestations and affirmations, while action is the actual behavior that creates a manifestation. This is the true nature of spiritual religious beings, their agenda, and the hidden plan they conceal. That's why I currently love the Dragon Dinosaur. It provides insight into the roots of the legendary European dragon stories. Paleontologists will find its fossil near a nest of 11 fossilized eggs in an oil and gas field. There, the legendary dragon story will be linked to it when it manifests existentially. 🥰💕⚘️🫠🌸

Visualization Progress Report for Past Week: I found a picture with different breast shapes from the website of a clinic that does breast augmentation surgeries. The breasts are drawn in a simple, no non-sense medical style, but it was exactly what I needed. When I did scanning work on Verres with this set of pictures in combination of the set of female hip proportion pictures from last week, I had a very sudden and strong feeling of "completion". It was as if something in my subconscious really needed those pictures, and it was the exact missing piece from a puzzle that it wanted. When I did visualization work with Verres that day, she was vivid on a whole different level, and I spent a lot of time working on her wings and their movements because there were not much need to work on the usual stuff. When I did work with Saeya later that night using the same breast shapes picture set, I did not get the same "eureka" feeling from my subconscious. Trying to visualize her with improvements from these pictures made me realize that my subconscious was still stuck on her face, that there are information my mind was still missing before Saeya's form can be considered complete. The pictures did make her torso look more well formed, at least. The picture I was using as a reference for both tulpas' face styles were better suited for Verres and that was probably why progress on Saeya's face was slower. I went back on Second Life's market place website and found a picture that was more appropriate for Saeya and did scanning work using it over the course of 3 days. I had trouble properly visualizing the exact shapes for human lips on and off. I realized during the past week's work that upper lip shapes and curvatures are a lot like those of mustache's - if I can imagine a mustache, I can do fine with female lips. Saeya's face have improved quite a bit over the past week too and is now more distinct from Verres' face, though her overall form is not at the same place as Verres yet. The work I've done with the breast shapes and face/lip shapes have made a big difference. As of last week, I can barely get past a count of 40 in JD's exercise if I were to try to visualize my tulpas' with properly animated movements and all the relevant details on their bodies during a 45 minute session. I can now get to 70 with Verres and the mid to high 60s with Saeya in the same time frame, and the numbers seem to continue to improve as I spend more time on the exercise. My subconscious doesn't really blackout or encounter trouble from not knowing how to visualize/generate the tulpas' forms anymore, be it clothed or naked. I now know how the tulpas' overall forms are from the ground up. Looking at them from odd angles such as when they are turning still can cause hiccups. Being too focused and wanting to direct everything with my mind also causes issues, so I need to go back to being more relaxed and passive the way I handled JD's exercise before I went off to focus on scanning details like their movements, body shapes, faces and whatever else. Right now things generally look like they're going in a good direction. It feels like if I take the time with JD's exercise again with the recent improvements in mind, I can get a lot further. At my very best with Verres, she can reach a point as defined by JD's guide as having her whole form present, but missing details, and ready for imposition. I am not always at my best with her, and my mid term goal with her is to be able to easily reach and stay at this stage of visualization. Possession Related Stuff: I asked for Verres's help and gave her permission to possess me when it's late at night and I need to get to bed, since I want to be able to wake up early to meditate. She's been doing it for a few nights so far. She's able to control my arm enough to close all windows on the computer and shut it down, despite one or two nights when a part of myself still wanted to waste more time on the PC. My quality of sleep have improved a lot from the earlier bed times. Miscellaneous Stuff: I got to talking with both tulpas on the subject matter of petty retail theft today. More specifically, when people go through Walmart's self checkout and intentionally not pay for some of their items. I heard Saeya's opinion on this for the first time. Years ago I spoke with Verres on the same topic, and I found out today that her opinion on this has changed. She went from being neutral on checkout theft to be more against it. My view on this topic, on the other hand, have stayed the same. We more or less agreed to disagree.

Thank you both so much! 💙 This is specifically Cal's DnD outfit, they normally wear more modern/casual clothes. Also, here's this portrait of Athelas! This was supposed to be for his birthday (yesterday) but my slow ass couldn't finish it until today, oops. ((No big deal :) It's the thought that counts.)) Excuse me if I Have some place in my mind Where I go time to time

Welcome to the site, @ExhumanVex! 😊 All that sounds pretty complicated to deal with but I'm glad you're here to work on it. I'm sure everyone will help the best they can (I'll try too but I'm not super knowledgeable about things yet). Good luck, I'm rooting for you all! 😁 Also, everyone sounds really cool and very fun to be around. 😊 I really like the nickname "Tupperware".

My system is, put simply, not functioning in quite the way I want it to be functioning. We are too median for me to be comfortable with, and I would like to go through a process of de-integration. As it currently stands, not a single headmate can fully exist on their own. Nobody can front on their own. The host is a subsystem that can only front while merged. We want to properly exist, we want to live on our own, we want to feel less like vessels and more like people. How can we do that? Well, I've decided that the best course of action is, well, tulpaforcing my headmates. Are they tulpas? No, but I do believe that I can build them up similarly to the way people can with actual tulpas, as they're practically the same thing in all ways except for methods of creation. I share a brain with them, they're at least vaguely separate to myself, headmates are headmates. Who cares where they came from? Using tulpa-centric methods, I do think I can help us all separate a bit more. So, what is my end goal? I want to be able to separate fully, but I don't want merging to be impossible. I do very much like existing, after all. But having all my headmates be able to exist separately, and being able to retreat into a designated headspace (or Wonderland, as they're called in tulpa communities) sounds like a dream. Genuinely being able to switch in and out sounds awesome. Now, I don't want to just jump straight into completely derailing our entire system dynamic, as that would be super reckless and crazy. So, I'm starting with an experiment. I'm going to try out these techniques on a headmate that's more of an acquaintance than an actual fragment of myself, just to see how it works. I'll be able to make sure that the effects are really something I want nearer to me. Make sure we can still merge, even if we're able to switch out. Luckily, I had the perfect person to try this out with. My actual tulpa, Tupperware. I made the little goob in highschool, and xe eventually started living xeir own life in the headspace. We stopped hanging out as frequently when I graduated and had to start focusing more on other things. Xe's literally perfect for this experiment in every way. Xe's a tulpa, and if it doesn't work out and changes the system dynamic in a negative way, not a lot will be affected as xe doesn't have a huge affect on how we function. That's by choice. I uhhh, don't like fronting. Personally, I'm pretty excited. Particularly about this whole Wonderland thing. Right now, if you aren't fronting, and aren't actively engaged in conversation in the headspace, you're sort of just blacked out. You're this dissociative blob that's vaguely you-shaped, ready to turn back into a person when called. It's not bad, just quite boring for someone who doesn't front very often. Having some place to actually exist even when you aren't actively engaged in anything sounds really nice. I don't care about the switching or separation parts, really doesn't affect me, I'm just being supportive lol. I'm excited to be able to help Vex out with this, regardless. Basically, the sequence of events will go like this: We start forcing basically from the beginning. Just the way we used to. Me and Tupperware will talk constantly, hammering in how separate we are. We'll start work on a Wonderland, and keep that going in the background. We'll achieve parallel-processing (woah!) and memory separation. We'll learn how to switch and (maybe) dissolve the prime directive, or at least take it with me when I switch out. I don't actually care about imposition, but that might be a cool thing to have with Lucas eventually. Basically, just completely de-integrate Tupperware, and if it works the way I want it to, I can work on doing the same with my sub-system. As of today, we're just planning, reading, researching, and getting ready. Tomorrow is when shit gets real. Tulpaforcing during CPR training, let's go!!