Can you live without your tulpa?

[Akecalo]

I have lost contact with my tulpas for a time, it was a very distressing experience. Going through a very hard time with lots of stress made it difficult to hear them, and when things got very bad, I was completely unable to hear either of them, and they were no longer imposed.

 

I have never felt so lonely. Luckily, Maya was able to come back when things calmed down a bit, and Mara came back some time later. things are much easier with them around.

 

In answer to the question, "can I live without my tulpa," realistically, I would have to say "not really."

[warriortiltheend]

I don't get too stressed if I can't hear my Tulpas.

 

If any of them died, I would be incredibly distressed. They mean as much to me as any physical friend. I don't think I would harm myself because of it, but I would be in a slump for a while. A long while.

[Orientor]

I'll honestly say that YEA it does bother me. Sadly, I always feel like I'm letting Gaelles down by not spending time with him and I'm always worried about what he's doing in the meantime... There are phases in which we spend lots of time together and others that we spend no time. But by no means could I completely live without him!

 

The few times I've thought of the idea I run a scenario in my head detailing what would happen afterwards. Every time it's the same reaction. Even if I do manage to leave him or send him away or generally distance myself from him, a raging feeling of guilt and loneliness fills me until I give in and go back.

 

I don't think it's really all that possible to live without something/someone so close to you. People don't take the time or put in the work it takes to be with a Tulpa of their own just to continue without them.

 

We, as Tulpamancers, don't:

 

1. bypass our skepticism and doubts to adopt beliefs alien to us;

2. take the time in research, preparation, and forcing for our Tulpa;

3. make long-term, incomparable relationships with our Tulpa-

 

just to live without them.

 

I will say one thing though (and I believe others on this forum will agree): We will do anything, we will say anything, and we will fight anyone or anything if it means making sure we are never apart from our precious companions. Because by the end, our Tulpas are a part of us, like the moon is a part of the earth. Once you bond with them, it will nearly impossible to let them go, because without our Tulpas we become lost.

 

If Gaelles was alive, I would fight with every cell in my body to keep him that way. If he died, I would put aside everything - EVERYTHING - to first honor his memory (through chronic/suicidal depression) and THEN strive to find a way to bring him back until the day I die! Because there's no way I could live without him! And I'd vouch that everyone else in this forum feels the same way.

[Sock]

So my tulpa just called me a 'big baby' for me stressing things out when I cannot hear her well. I was wondering about that question for a while, and have other inquiries;

 

Do you often become anxious or stressed if you cannot hear your tulpa?

What would your reaction be if, say, your tulpa died? Let's say your tulpa was a real person outside of your mind, and died in the real world. What would your reaction be?

 

To the first question, I've actually been working to train myself NOT to have that reaction, and it's been succeeding. Though I'd say an element of the reaction was a sense of doubt creeping in, or a sense that something was off, rather than full blown stress or panic. Either way, I wanted to train myself to be more patient and observant, rather than reacting to a slight change in stimuli, as such things cause me trouble in the past.

 

To the second...when I read that line I felt stuck to the heart. It was an odd, difficult to describe feeling, but was certainly negative, with a familiar shade of sorrow. I think that feeling said more about what I'd feel than any active speculation I could come up with.

[Sweets]

Interesting question, and truly a depressing one.

 

I managed to overcome suicidal tendencies and the likes before, so yes, I guess even if she left me for whatever reason I would be able to live on. Or rather, go back to where I was before her. I doubt you'd call that living.

We often take our time alone, as I am very busy and mostly try to shut my emotions and everything connected to it out - which also includes her. Then there are times when she simply won't show up. I've learned to accept it as I simply had no other choice. We can get along without each very well, as our relationship is quite peculiar anyway, and it is not necessary her presence, but her spirit that keeps me going. Imagining how I'd feel with her gone... I think everything we achieved me would lose its meaning. I know, that sounds very dependant and immature, but that's just the way my mind works, and she knows it. She loathes it to some extent I'd wager, but well.

 

In the end, most of what defines me nowadays is her doing. Losing that, falling back to zero and below... I don't really want to think about it. But I always felt that if something was to happen to her, or if she decided it's time for her to move on, I would sense it, like those reports about twins 'feeling' it when their sibling died without any way they could possibly know about it. After all, my mind is hers. As long as I don't feel something like that, everything's fine, and I'd wager it's like that for most of us. In my opinion, there's no need to worry unless it's imprinted in your head, in big, fat letters, as I doubt any tulpa would take their leave without letting their host know. They're just not like that, no matter how upset or independent they might be.

[Actinium]

At this point, I don't think I can. I've gotten used to having two ponies constantly sing in my head all the time. Having it all quiet up in there would just seem wrong.

[Chris-One]

No because my tulpa is my wife and I love her

[AracnidsGrip/Rick]

No I couldn't. Vris, Fef, Miranda, Beth, Kotoura and Hades have became a really important and escential part of my life and my day-to-day routine.

~L. ♠️