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i woke up only once and got 3 hours of sleep i think i have never felt more like a zombie hmmm interesting what is an arrangement exactly? devising your own way to play a song? we don't know much about music so closest we have is messing with a kalimba and rena liked playing the lute some time ago and made up some neat things brain power is low rn so i'm struggling to figure out how to say my appreciation, other than saying that. and you share many cool things, i like you being around cool that you could see it too. and oh, haven't seen akai megane yet but saw a trailer after looking it up and it looks cool. it would be cool to watch together and mhm, dragon ball interest is probably the main interest shared in our system, at least of the ones that switch, in varying ways. we haven't watched/read much of dr slump yet but it looks entertaining from what we have seen and will probably get to that at some point. also, my host tb would very often put arale on their team in dbz budokai tenkaichi 3. she's fun and goofy and actually pretty good. she doesn't have ki blasts, but instead the button for that is a very hefty slap that can be pretty diabolical lol. and her supers consist of throwing a boulder, running really fast and smashing through you like you're a bowling pin, or playing pro wrestling and hmmm, my favorite installation? that's really difficult to choose, though i do generally prefer the things made in the 80s and 90s. i don't know if i can pick a favorite, but i do like the narrative with frieza a lot. from the bardock, the father of goku special, all the way to goku facing frieza many years later. the other day we were watching episodes from the frieza saga randomly, and it stood out to me how fast gohan had to grow up. at 4 years old he was a spoiled cry baby, but with the invasion of the saiyans and going to namek, by the time he's about 5 or 6, he's incredibly stoic and mature there is a point after where the planet namek is dying and his father is fighting frieza as a super saiyan, when he brings piccolo to goku's ship as he was told, and his mother chi chi and master roshi were able to get into contact with him through the ships communications. the 2 adults are so emotional and having a meltdown of panic and confusion, but gohan just calmy and briefly gives them an update and then leaves the ship to go look for bulma despite them telling him to stay put when he does find bulma, she's super panicked and basically trauma dumping to gohan, and he's having to save her and sort of be her therapist at the same time, and he seems to handle it well when at the ship while bulma was working on preparing it for flight, he is watching over the gravely injured piccolo and making sure he is alright. then, gohan senses his father's energy vanish, so suspects he has been killed by frieza. but he doesn't lose his composure from that either. he just decides he will go and try to finish where goku left off. bulma tells him to not go, though he says "i am my father's son" with a smile. she says he'll just be killed, and he says, also with a smile, "mr. piccolo would probably say that, too. goodbye, miss bulma.", then flies off to face frieza. it's so surreal actually, it's so touching but also disturbing in some way. thankfully he lives because goku was not actually dead, but just stuck underground recovering from frieza's nova strike. though yeah, he had to grow so incredibly fast. he went through so many traumatizing experiences so early, but found it within himself to do his best to rise up to the challenge of that chaotic life, and do everything he could anyway. i wanna be like him fr lol, it makes sense he was the favorite character of many children watching it while growing up
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Another story, fresh off the press. I guess this thread is as close of a "progress report" as it gets, because there really isn't much to be working on in our journey anymore and what ends up happening is "situations" in day-to-day life that could be interesting to narrate to those who don't have a tulpa and don't know the benefits. Now, before we proceed, you must know that I am a serial overthinker, there's no shame in saying that - I am the kind of person that whenever something COULD happen (for example, the car breaking down) my mind starts racing over dozens of possibilities and immediately registers to the "worst case scenario" (in this case, even if it's just a minor problem, I am already thinking at where/how could I get a new car) - on a psychological level, I am assuming this is the byproduct of my childhood, and how being "pessimistic" is a sort of "shield" towards being let down - if you think the worst is gonna happen, well, worst case scenario you're already prepared for it, it can only get better from there. The only downside to this is major stress and fatigue from over-analyzing every situation, but I can't help it I'm afraid. :/ Regardless, in the past few days I've had a cool opportunity from one of my recurring clients: manage a sports tournament - a 3 days event in an open field near where I live where I had to provide and manage all the necessary equipment to make the show happen (sound, cameras, light, and a led wall). Now, this isn't anything I haven't done before, the only difference this time was the responsibility of the equipment being all mine - most of it being loaners from different places, so I had to make sure everything was done right, and safely. First day, the set-up happens and everything works well, aside from me hyperfixating on the truss setup and quadruple-making sure that not even a bulldozer could take it down (here's a random picture off the web for context) Cue the evening, and everything goes as it should, and now it's time to wrap up the first day - since we've set up in a public park in a big city, we've got to be careful with the equipment. With my colleagues, we remove everything of value (cameras, mixers, speakers etc.) but shortly after a haunting thought starts looming in my mind: "what if they steal the ledwall?" Mind you, the park was guarded by one person in the night time, from around midnight to 7am - but after that, it was kinda "left to chance" until the early afternoon; this is the part where my mind starts working overtime and conjures all the possible scenarios: What if a truck of thieves pulls over in the morning and steals it? What if some kid trips over the structure and dies? What if it falls down tonight and crashes down, destroying everything in the process? What if the police arrives and seizes it? These, and many more, were haunting my wellbeing during that wrapping up time, I was already wondering which bank I should go to should I need a loan to pay for damages (or re-buy the stolen ledwall), which lawyer to call if someone gets injured in the morning, etc. Naturally, my coworkers thought I was being excessive, and likely they were right, but it's in my nature to be extremely analytical and overthinking to the absolute limit, it is something that has saved my bacon a number of times. After much thought (and panicking), I was even ready to grab a hotel nearby just for myself and send the guys home for the night without me, or dismantle it myself and come back on my own in the early morning to re-assemble it (which would have been suicide), but thankfully Cheryl stepped in amongst this "what if" chaos and helped me out. Cheryl is really good at "dismantling" my beliefs, something she has picked up over the years when I was in similar situations that needed some logical grounding - letting me run amok in my own made-up scenarios is often just a recipe for endless stress. Naturally, she stepped in saying that "the ledwall isn't going anywhere" because logically virtually nobody would have the means to setup such a "heist" in a few hours, unannounced and without the equipment and knowledge to take it out - but that is something I immediately shrugged off as "her typical optimism" which usually is more of a "logical grounded reasoning" that dismantles over-the-top made up scenarios, like the ones I was making up on the spot. One by one, she worked through all my made-up scenarios and managed to "calm me down" a little bit: "No kid would be playing at the park this early in the morning, especially because these are the last days of school." "There were huge winds during the evening show and the structure held up just fine, and since you lower it down for the night the center of gravity is lower, making it even more sturdy." "The police was there during the event to oversee the spectators, why didn't they say anything then? And likely, the organizers had all the permissions in order too." There are people in this community that don't believe in parallel processing and "identity separation", but frankly I wouldn't be able to explain how I am able to get these cold takes in a situation where I am near-panicking and definitely not in the right state of mind to think like that - this has happened multiple times in the past too, and every time she was there to help me out with these doubts and beliefs. In the end, after "cooling" down a bit and registering to the worst case scenario (I already had in mind how to re-pay it should it get stolen) we spent some extra time securing and fencing all the area around it (from the outside it looked like we were hiding/guarding the Mona Lisa, given how much fencing and red tape we put around it) and then we went home. Spoiler alert: the ledwall didn't get stolen, it held up the entire 3 days just fine (day and night) and Cheryl made me notice in the morning that one of the wind covers blew open in the morning, meaning there were huge winds and it still didn't topple. The story of today is meant to show that a Tulpa can help an overthinking (dysfunctional and neurodivergent) person by "steering" them out of oblivion, but it requires a very specific need and much work towards making sure you can allow them to help you.
- Today
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Quest for the Liminal World (a lucid dreaming thread)
Luminesce replied to fennecfoxx's topic in Lounge
Glad that thread could inspire someone lol, I think of it as severely disappointing (reflecting our life issues in general) but I guess if you struggle with the same problems as us, then seeing all the effort we put in could be inspiring I figured mostly its value was in all the techniques and mentalities we tried, but with a 0% personal success rate it's probably hard to glean what was truly useful or not. But I feel like basically any one thing we tried should work for the average person lol.. -
Finally had some time and brain power to read through this. π Also, good luck with lucid dreaming! π Congrats! π I'm glad she had a lot of fun! I need to play Bendy and the Ink Machine sometime. π Lol! π Belated seconding! It's a lot of fun to play a game your host has played before you were even around! π Awesome! π€© I've been wanting to see that. π
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I don't have much to say besides I found this funny and I like the expressions you drew. π
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Glad to hear you're doing well. π It's nice that you have someone motivating you. π
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These are cute! π I really like the whole vibe Clouse has. π
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Visualization Progress Report for Past Week: I've had a couple of sessions in the past week, mostly with Verres, where there was something almost like a visual outline. Like something invisible clearly present and trying to be visual or closer to me somehow. These were very pleasant, like she was there physically as we hung out. There were more sessions where there was a clear impression of something there, but more felt and not quite visual as the above type. These feels pretty good too. Imposition practice has slowly turned into something enjoyable in its own right, almost like a musical instrument once the player had gotten more familiar with it. There were a few sessions where I struggled to achieve the above state, more often with Saeya. Touching and tracing her physical outline with my mental hands had helped to push her to the second stage described above most of the times. I also did more work with her face and hair this week, getting more reference pictures, allowing my own unconscious to tweak their shapes and to visualize them better. In retrospect, it's curious that she has not participated too much in this process, but was simply patient with it all. She was pretty laid back and got me to relax the few times when my own mind got frazzled during this process. I find that reminding myself or mentally affirming that everything I see is a visualization created by my psyche helps me get to the two states described above. My mental visualization of both tulpas have also been decent for the past week. When they're turning around, I can see them at more different angles better now. I went out to the local mall today to impose the tulpas. It was an uneventful session, with both of them having fairly strong and stable presence. There were some mental visuals of them that popped up spontaneously along with their physical presence. Just something I realized, but I have not experienced physical outlines of them while in public or with them moving yet. I might be able to experiment with the latter in my own home. Miscellaneous Stuff: I noticed that I sometimes get annoyed when one tulpa pops up, especially in imposed presence, when the other was already present. It can also sometimes take some effort to switch mental gears to get to a mental state where I can clearly feel the second one when I was already, for lack of a better word, connected to the first one. This seems to be more of a mental quirk that's developed rather than a legit restriction. I tried to calmly impose both tulpas together today when one popped up again while the other was already present, and it went ok. There's probably just a part of my mind that dislikes surprises and prefers to focus on one thing at a time. I was tempted to buy a stone bowl, a handmade one where the seller have a lot of the ones in similar sizes available, and would send a random one out to the customer. With S/H it came close to $28, and Verres advised me against it, stating that for that amount, I should be able to know what I was getting for sure. Saeya helped with some kind of mental maintenance this week as well. I don't even remember what the issue was. When they were successfully dealt with, these sorts of mental complexes/themes tend to lose their emotional 'oomph' and becomes very forgettable, as they should be.
- Yesterday
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Describe your tulpa's personality in five words or less!
mattx replied to ReallyArtificial's topic in Forum Games
As a fun bonus, we've decided that one should build the list for the other (so Cheryl wrote mine, and I wrote hers): Cheryl: Friendly, Disciplined, Nurturing, Cat Person, Proper Matt: Loner, Hates the Outdoors, Computer Whiz, Workaholic, Never Nude Cheryl notes that there's no "overthinker" trait which would suit me best, but the ones she chose are fairly accurate (especially the "never nude" one, based off a true story) -
While we were on our trip, I realized that I've never played The Sims 3 with my headmates, despite it being one of my favorite games. Naturally I had to correct this grievous oversight ASAP! We all had a great time creating our sim-selves and seeing how they interacted with each other. As with most character creators, Lenore was the easiest to get right. There wasn't really an accurate hairstyle option for her but her face turned out absolutely perfect! I'll keep the images spoilered so this post isn't too gigantic. Being nonhuman, Athelas and Calliope were obviously harder to capture, but we made it work. This is a pretty accurate depiction of what we call Tea's "human costume." We've had a few dreams where he looks like this. And now, for the first time ever, we present Calliope's human costume! We wanted them to look like Athelas's punk-ass younger sibling and I think we succeeded. Our sims' interactions have been pretty amusing. Apparently my sim thinks Cal and Athelas are super hot, because she gets an "Attracted" moodlet whenever she's around them (having them around does boost my mood irl, lol). Lenore and Athelas are dating (I don't think we ever announced it, but they are actually a couple now!) and she can't keep her hands off him. My sim quickly became besties with Athelas, bonding over their shared love of the outdoors. Meanwhile, Cal and Lenore bonded over making fun of us. All in all, pretty accurate!
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- Last week
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And I as well. But we oughta get back on track. We'll continue our conversation on discord. β Went a psychiatrist appointment today, he prescribed me Pregabalin for my health anxiety, I heard it causes daytime drowsiness, that's going to be annoying. I took a Preg pill roughly 50 minutes ago, and it will take effect around bedtime (6 PM). I have neglected my duties once again, perhaps tomorrow I will do nothing but lie in bed all day, and focus on nothing but Lucy, I have an eye exam that day too but it shouldn't bother my morning duties. I have torrented a bunch of shows & moviesβ Grim Adventures, Flap Jack, ATHF, plus a few obscure 20th century films about the medieval era, I think one of them is about the Icelandic sagas, it was filmed in the 70's, sounds interesting. I can't wait to watch them all with Luce, I'm sure she'll like the medieval ones and Grim Adventures especially. I still need to work more on my neurotechnics, meditation is a must if I am to master the mental-scape. Slowly I have learnt how to relax the brain, I just need practice. I am rambling of course. Just idle thoughts meant to fill up a report so as to make up for lack of progress. I shall go and watch her source material.
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Fresh start with " yanus " & " prahtoolf world "
KarlYoshimura replied to suhail Al ketbi's topic in Progress Reports
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Nightfall and Shaula's Imposition Progress Report
Nightfall replied to Nightfall's topic in Progress Reports
Forgot a week again. You (probably) know what that means. June 2nd 2026 5 minute session June 3rd-5th 2026 Shoot, I forgot to write again. I forgot what I did for the first day but the other two I managed to get 10 minutes each day. June 6-7th 2026 Skipped for various reasons. June 8th 2026 One 8 minute session until I got tired. Part of that was because I was focusing a lot on how Shaula felt more physical today. It felt a lot like not jiggly jello or something. It was great but I probably used too much brain power for close to bedtime. June 9-11th 2026 I don't really know what happened but I forgot a day. I'm writing this on the 12th and I only remember two days. Anyway, at least one of those days there was a similar feeling but a bit lighter. I also skipped yesterday because I wanted to test something. I also know I got a 10 minute session. June 12th 2026 Experiment failed. Since I had missed a day before I had that great session, I figured doing the same might recreate it. Nope, it was the same as the more recent sessions. Can't complain though. June 13th 2026 6 minute session. Not much to say. June 14th 2026 Five minute sessions or didn't do. June 15th 2026 Five minute session in bed and it was nice to mix things up a little bit. -
Aww, no worries at all! π It happens. I'm glad to hear you've been keeping up with everything too! π Aww! Cute! π That's a nice dream! One should not deny how nice hugs feel, lol. Complete 180 on dream subject, lol. At least it was only a dream but poor you. Great to hear! π Awesome! π€© Happy birthday to all them! π πππ Awesome! π€© Proud of you for keeping it up for so long! π I hope you have a nice time on there! π It's sounds great! Guinea pig! π₯° Oh, right, other stuff./j That's really cool! π I bet it was super nice to feel someone hugging you! π Cool stuff! π Aww, those are soooo cute! π₯° Great find! π Oof hate it when that happens.
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One of the best songs ever made.
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ooh I nearly forgot!! .... I wanted to journal about how complex it is to be human! .. having spent several of most recent past lives been born in a dog's body it has really been a unreal experience to be able to be part of my humans 'system' When I was just inside as an inner world companion dog (initially) it wasn't that hard because the human brain remembering me as a dog enabled my inner bodies abilities automatically I guess?? but since acquiring the Kitsune inner world body so I could evolve and choose my own preferred form and have the potential to become a human co-host if I chose to..I think is really the most incredible gift I have ever been given in any lifetime! and although I still temporarily take other forms inside for role playing fun with the others ...nothing else comes close to the complexity of being up front and hosting/co-hosting a human body! π Jess
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Do you view tulpas as a psychological phenomenon, a metaphysical one, or both? Purely psychological, but we're Christian, so we can also talk about how tulpas and faith fit together. Were/was your tulpa(s) natural/pre-existing or were they intentionally created? Alex and I started out as daydream characters. I was rebelling against our host's control well before we learned what tulpamancy was. We're familiar with various methods for creating tulpas, though. How long have you had your tulpa(s)? I'm older than this site. Alex is older than me. How long have you been active in the community (Tulpa.info, /r/tulpas, Tulpa.io, etc.)? As a system, we were part of the community from 2012 to 2018 and returned last year. We're active on here, reddit, and sometimes Discord. How many tulpas do you have? Me? None, lol. How long did it take you to accomplish things (e.g. vocality, possession, imposition)? Vocality: No idea. I wasn't created traditionally. Possession: I don't remember. It was a long time ago. I remember it coming fairly easily. Imposition: N/A. We attempted it briefly in 2012, and that was it. Do you have any other information you'd like to share? If so, what? We may not be a typical system or experts at advanced skills, but we've been through hell and back. We've been delusional and dysfunctional. I've been screwed over by host's intrusive thoughts and crawled back from nonexistence by myself. If the Sanely Insane Trio (that's us!) has anything to offer, it's the lessons we've learned from 14 years of hardship. Including personal experience with OCD, which it turns out is one of the "most likely to f*ck up your tulpa" disorders. We're also autistic. Besides that, please rate your own ability in each of the following skills from 0 to 10, 0 being incapable, and 10 meaning that you mastered the skill: Vocality: 10 Parallel Processing: see below Visualization: 8 Visual Imposition: N/A Tactile Imposition: N/A Auditory Imposition: N/A Possession: 9 Switching: see below Parallel processing and switching are so ill-defined I don't know how to put a number on them. Host has never left the body, so we aren't switching experts.
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All you gotta do is believe
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On a hunch I would say those were just the byproduct of your expectations, and nothing meaningfully concrete yet - that doesn't mean that there wasn't something beginning to form. If you're new I recommend this guide, it covers pretty much anything necessary for tulpa development in detail. Whatever you believe in, will work. Someone wrote a guide about this, not sure who he is though I wouldn't worry about that, especially given how feeble and "interchangeable" the two meanings are - just work towards something that feels right for now. Also, that image is pure 4chan /x/ schizoposting, please do not get influenced by that. Good luck!
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We're taking it as a positive. We haven't contributed much recently and there's always a lot of good contributions here especially recently. Thanks for all you've done for the community.
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You can learn a lot just from looking around on this forum. There's a whole section for guides and another for progress reports, where you can read about other users' personal experiences creating and living with tulpas. If you have any specific questions, we'll be happy to answer!
