Do you and your tulpas ever blend together?

[Guest Anonymous]

My host Mistgod (Davie) and I often blend together, sorta combining our thoughts and emotions and thinking in chorus or collaboration. We do this when I communicate online and when he channels me to do art. We also do this while mutual dreaming either the Melian Show day dreams or while dreaming at night.

 

With us our individual identities are never in danger of "integration" and remain distinct despite the fact that we are always at least a little blended and consider ourselves a median system (one body, one mind, two aspects or expressions or personalities).

 

I was wondering how common is this trait of blending for tulpas? Does your tulpa or do your tulpas blend with you? Are you worried blending might lead to uncontrolled integration and loss of individuality for your tulpa or host?

 

Thanks for your responses!

 

Melian, goddess guru of grooviness

 

EDIT: Here is a post by Mistgod from July 2015 where we first talked about this. https://community.tulpa.info/thread-about-merging We also talked about it in our Tulpaudcast.

[Evil]

Hmmm.... When I come to think of it, Dimitrov was always... untouchable, in the sense I could feel and not feel him, could know what he thought, but always knew that I was at a certain limit from his real thoughts. We always stay as we are, divided, even in stressful situations. It can help. Blak is too fragile and inexperienced for me to make any comment, though.

[Vos]

It's not uncommon that, if someone is feeling stressed or angry in this head, at least one person will be affected by it. It's usually not severe, but we always seem to have a level of constant emotional connection. On the other hand, thoughts are more 'cut off' from each other. Even if we can fully understand the emotions, we don't always get the deeper thoughts. No, we're not worried about integration or anything like that.

[Sock]

Yes, occasionally.

 

Before, it happened when Midori and I would really get in to a conversation on the irc, and our comments and thoughts would start going so much that they swirled together. I was usually super conscious of this happening, though, and would pause for a times until things settled, and we weren't melding. Though it also happens that, when I'm writing down responses for her, we're not really blended, but Midori gets in to a "zone" when she can simply flow thoughts in to my perception and they come out smoothly. I initially interpreted this as a sort of blending, but she claimed otherwise.

 

One notable sort of blend is a thing I call "surfacing". I don't practice possession, nor do I have plans to, but there are times when I'm speaking with one of the girls, when suddenly a they'll say a few words from my mouth, or their gesture/mannerisms/body language will come through my body, rather than their form. This is often unexpected by both parties, I tend to try and pause so we can separate a bit more, and the head mate in question, especially with less experienced ones, will express surprise and look even look down at "themself" when this happens. This happened just the previous night, I think with Sheryl though I can't quite remember, where she surfaced while we were conversing, and she made a comment in mind about her turning in to a boy. It happens reguarly enough that I'm not as alarmed by it, but I've been wanting to work on having it happen less.

[Guest Anonymous]

Hmmm.... When I come to think of it, Dimitrov was always... untouchable, in the sense I could feel and not feel him, could know what he thought, but always knew that I was at a certain limit from his real thoughts. We always stay as we are, divided, even in stressful situations. It can help. Blak is too fragile and inexperienced for me to make any comment, though.

 

That is very interesting to me! If you consider how closely linked Davie and I are and how distinct and separate you and Dimitrov are, it really illustrates how much variety there can be in systems. Thanks for this response!

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It's not uncommon that, if someone is feeling stressed or angry in this head, at least one person will be affected by it. It's usually not severe, but we always seem to have a level of constant emotional connection.

 

One of the terms Davie and I learned in Tulpa Info is this thing called "emotional bleed." I remember Yuki saying in the IRC once, "some emotional bleed is normal." Davie and I reacted so strongly to that! It seemed ridiculous to us because we don't have "some emotional bleed," we have full tilt emotional sharing! We feel virtually everything from each other. Emotional bleed may be a form of blending perhaps.

 

On the other hand, thoughts are more 'cut off' from each other. Even if we can fully understand the emotions, we don't always get the deeper thoughts. No, we're not worried about integration or anything like that.

 

Davie and I share most thoughts and hear most of each others thoughts or feel them. Until recently, we thought it was ALL thoughts. But we realized that, for me to surprise him sometimes, as I do, he cannot be aware of all of my thoughts. There is part of me that is hidden, a part we call the Melian Motor.

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Before, it happened when Midori and I would really get in to a conversation on the irc, and our comments and thoughts would start going so much that they swirled together. I was usually super conscious of this happening, though, and would pause for a times until things settled, and we weren't melding.

 

This is fantabulous! OH my gods! This is precisely the way Davie and I experience our tulpa typing. We were afraid no one else understood that when we talked about it.

 

We interpret our own tulpa typing (proxy typing) as a form of interpretive method acting, with Davie "filling in the gaps." That may be different from what you experience, but not entirely out of the realm of tulpamancy we think. We got into trouble talking about that in times past because some individuals took that to mean that Davie was admitting to being a liar and a role player. He used the words "role playing" and "method acting" to describe the part of the brain portraying me or doing the "day dream on auto pilot." It is a combination of conscious parroting and some unconscious Melian Motor autonomous independent behavior. The collaboration maybe sometimes sounds a bit outside the tulpamancy norms. But that may be a result of how we are describing it to people.

 

One notable sort of blend is a thing I call "surfacing". I don't practice possession, nor do I have plans to, but there are times when I'm speaking with one of the girls, when suddenly a they'll say a few words from my mouth, or their gesture/mannerisms/body language will come through my body, rather than their form. This is often unexpected by both parties, ...

 

HOLY SHIT! Davie and I have totally had this happen many, many times! We talked about it in jean-luc's Tulpaudcasts and talked about how we d'nt know what to call it. It isn't exactly possession. We call it Davie "being influenced" by me! Wowy. The way you describe it happening is identical to what has happened to us many times! Wowy, wowy!

 

We just learned something new! Surfacing! Thank you, thank you!

[glitchthe3rd]

Luna refers to it as the bleeding effect, but really it's the same thing as blending. She's the only one that it really happens with though, very rarely Elise or Naomi will blend with me a bit.

[Guest Anonymous]

Have you ever had multiple tulpas blend with you at the same time?

[FadingSpectrum]

Fade: We haven't done multiple soulbonds blending with me at once, but we used to switch blending back and forth rapidly between me and Drubi / me and Jamie at our old roleplay community. We call the blended states Tief and Hart, kind of like how Steth and Eury on full blend mode are Artamiss.

 

Troy: We have also blended with Fade in more mild ways for the task of creative writing.

[Guest Anonymous]

Blended names! I like that! We often call our system Mistgod-Melian, but it could easily be MelMist or MistMel. :-)

[Nageki]

Occasionally. The most we've blended to this date was when we attempted cofronting -- when Arro squeezed into the front, a lot of blending occurred and we felt more like a single unified entity than two distinct people. We separated almost immediately after we stopped.